Abyssal Pixels: Damn, I’ve Played A Lot Of Games
If I had to go back to the first time I got my hands on a controller, I would have never have guessed that I would be where I am today. Back in 2006 when I got my Xbox 360, I didn’t even intend to get one in the first place. I was gunning for a PS3 because I’ve had a PS2 for a few years, but thanks to the PS3 being utterly overpriced back then, I decided to get the Xbox 360 because it was released in SA and it was affordable. Fast forward 7 years and I’ve played over 400 games on the console and have 180 000 GamerScore, which is, to my knowledge, the second highest score in South Africa (I may be wrong though). Wow, that’s a hell of a lot of gaming. Imagine if I had all platforms. I would probably be dead by now.
Having 400 games isn’t that impressive. I’m pretty sure some of you have more in your Steam library. But the difference is that I have played close to 75% of them to completion. If you take an average of 20 hours per game, that’s 6000 hours of gametime. Nearly 250 days of straight gaming. That’s with an average that doesn’t factor in particular games where I played for 400+ hours. Games such as Skyrim, Fallout 3 and Oblivion (I like Bethesda games, okay). That’s 1200 hours from just 3 games. Then you can also count the ridiculous amount of time I spent on Guitar Hero and Rock Band. If I had to wager a guess, I would say I spent about 2000 hours playing those games alone. I think the phrase “no life” comes into play here. It’s not MMO player level insanity, but it’s more impressive considering it’s so many games separately.
This might all seem like gloating, but what I’m trying to say is that I have had so many experiences this generation that it’s ridiculous. My love for gaming has grown so monstrous that it had eaten away a gigantic portion of my young life. And I don’t regret it even for a second. Throughout my near heroin-level addiction to gaming, I’ve experienced so much that it can’t be easily explained. I’ve played bad games that made me want to shoot myself in the head. I’ve also played games that have more or less changed my life in one way or another. I’ve lived in fictional worlds for so long that some of them I would have no problem calling home. I’ve also run through places that didn’t even deserve my attention in any way.
Gaming has been a crutch in my life, supporting me when all the world’s burdens fell on me. I’ve even written once that it has pretty much saved me from killing myself. Gaming has also been a burden, however, where I’ve sacrificed having a social life just for the sake of playing more games. So many conflicting emotions, but every bit of it feels worth it. The sacrifices that I’ve made in order to feed my addiction is countered by the astounding levels of satisfaction that I have gained from it. Gaming truly is, my life.
As we go into this next generation, I don’t feel that I want to stop or even slow down. Gaming is such a sizable chunk of my life already that if I leave it right now, I would just have a gigantic void that needs filling. So amongst all the bickering about which console is better and overwhelming arguments about resolution, I’m still excited for what is going to come. A continuation of the wonderful second life that I have made for myself.